Self Medicate

Well my friends hate me, for what I've become
See I've been drowning in love
And not focusing on my life
But this morning i took off all of my clothes
And cleaned my skin clear
But the stench of you, no it doesn't disappear
So I just wait in my lonely house
No, no, no, I have no cloud.
To put your pictures up in an art gallery
So I go out and place my feet downtown
And the people watch me drink myself in bars to death constantly
And then ask "Why you're doing this boy,
when there's so much more to prove?"
Well she's never coming back
And I havta finish this half cuz i paid 4 bucks a glass
And it's also the only thing that could be sticking around

And I bought cocaine from my friend just the other day
Yeah, just to let my memory fade
So when you come to my place
My heart will beat as loud as a kick drum
Cuz you know when you talk to much
It's like music playing
And it only cost me my thoughts when you left
You see I get so depressed when you're lying to my face
And I think we'd be very cute
You know if you'd just let me hold you
And then we could spell out the truth
And if you do this to me again
I might have a childish fit
And you won't find me attractive as you did
No, you knew a man, someone on their feet with high self-esteem
And never blames manic depression for the way he's feeling

That's how I'm feeling

So if i told you i found antoher love, well you know
Just this once, it was right after you ran to his art warehouse
And we were dancing and drinking downtown
The lights were blinking so loud that for once i couldn't hear what a girl adored
And I collapsed into the gutter of Kay Street
As when i knew our mistakes were beauty
And i found you more than incomplete
So what this lie was all just a bit of truth
Will you still chase me like i do
When you're constantly wrapped in mens sheets
We are the fairy tale that failed
And i constantly keep reading it
So i am the ugliest thing that could ever grow up to be of some kind of use
And you know how perfect we could be

cuz we could be, yeah we could be
alright help me out