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Dear Matthew
I like you a lot
I realize you ´re in a relationship with someone right now
and i respect that
i would like you to know that
if you´re ever single in the future
and you want to come visit me in california
i would be open to spending time with you
and finding out how old you were when you wrote your first
song

Dear Jonathan
I liked you too much
I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me
and think solely about themselves
and you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time
i used to say the more tragic the better the truth is
whenever I think of the early 90's
your face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday

Dear Terrance
I loved you muchly
you´ve been nothing but open hearted
and emotionally available and supportive and nurturing
and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in
and pushing you away i remember how beatiful it was
to fall asleep on your couch and cry in front of you
for the first time you were the best platform
from which to jump beyond myself
what was wrong with me

Dear Marcus
you rocked my world
you had a charismatic way about you with the women
and you got me seriously thinking about spirituality
and you wouldn´t let me get away with kicking my own ass
but i could never really feel relaxed
and looked out for around you though
and that stopped us from going any further than we did
and it´s kinda too bad we could´ve had much more fun

Dear Lou
we learned so much
i realize we won´t be able to talk for some time
and i understand that as i do you the long distance thing
was the hardest and we did as well as we could we were
together during a very tumultuous time in our lives
i will always have your back
and be curious about you about your career
your whereabouts